I wrote this poetry when I was in grade 9 JHS.
Selama ini gue selalu minder dengan keadaan gue. Tiba-tiba setelah lulus SMP dan tante gue tau nilai UN gue yang 9 ada dua, tante gue punya rencana buat gue yang sangat membahagiakan gue apabila terjadi. Sebetulnya rencana iu mau dilaksanain pas liburan. Ya tapi ada mau dikata, dewi fortuna belum bersama gue. Rencana itu tertunda. Gue sangan berharap rencana itu bisa terlaksana. Gue tau resikonya mungkin kalo orang lain yang bukan family tau pasti jadi bahan omongan. Ya mungkin setelah rencana itu terlaksana gue pindah dan lenyap ada dari mereka.
Ada orang yang dulu gue senengin. Gue suka nulis tentang dia 2009 lalu tapi gue hapus. Kata temen gue, dia udah punya pacar, tapi gue biasa-biasa aja. Menurut gue, gue juga gasuka sama dia, dia cuma pelarian karena gue bosen cuma jadi secret admire gajelas nya orang inisial A sejak Juni 2007. Ya gue seneng banget, tandanya gue makin dewasa. Yang pasti sekarang gue tutup mata dulu dehh kalo soal suka-suka gajelas itu. Gue cuma bisa bilang seseorang ganteng tapi gue gak bisa bilang gue suka dia. Gue selalu berharap rencana tante gue itu jadi kenyataan dan kalo gue udah berubah sesuai rencana tante gue, MUNGKIN gue bisa suka sama orang lagi hahaha.
Hello :)
Lama banget gak nulis di sini hahaha :) Saya bersyukur banget udah lulus SMP, dan sekarang SMA. Iyaa, walaupun ada hal-hal menarik yang udah gabisa dijalani lagi di SMA ini. Tapi itu udah jadi takdir, gue cuma bisa ngejalanin aja. Yang diatas itu foto saya di SMA sama temen-temen dari beberapa anggota Mudika (Muda Mudi Katolik).
Di usia ini, gue cuma pengen jadi lebih dewasa, gue gak mau ngemis-ngemis cinta gajelas, gak mau ngeluh-ngeluh banyak saingan, pelajaran susah, guru palabatu, dll. iya semua butuh proses, setiap kejadian pasti bisa jadi pelajaran.
Ternyata lanjut di SMA itu lumayan repot. Tugas-tugas dan ulangannya lumayan bikin pusing. Gue jadi heran, pas SMP, selalu teringat akan masa-masa gokil SD, dan pas SMA juga gitu. Ya tapi rasa pengen balik ke SMP gak sebesar rasa pas SMP mau SD lagi hahaha. Lo banyangin aja di SMP itu masuk-masuk anak-anaknya banyak banget yang gajelas, songong, genit, dll dahh. Dan ada satu or dua guru yang ngeremehin fisik ke gue. Ya itu emank masa lalu, tapi gatau kenapa masih inget aja sama hal itu. Tapi pada akhirnya gue sayang koq sama mereka, dari mereka gue belajar. Mereka buat gue tambah dewasa, I love you all.
Gue gak sedih sama sekali pas tau cowok yang gue "harapkan" pas SMP udah berpacaran. Gatau kenapa. Untung gue gak satu skul sama dia. Kalo gak, gak kebayang gimana jadinya temen-temen ledekin gue. Lagian kakak kelas gue ada beberapa yang gantengggg bangettt hahahahahaha. Tapi gue gak mau suka mereka. Gue males ngemis-ngemis cinta gak jelas.
Sekarang, gue sekolah di SMA Negri 13 Jakarta. Masuk lewat tes dan sekarang duduk di kelas X-5 di lantai 3 yang dulu bekas kelas internasional *hahahaha siapa nanya?*
Temen-temennya ya kayak di Strada tapi kalo gue bilang sie masih gokilan di Strada.
Okay, intinya gue selalu berharap semoga bisa tambah rajin, pinter, and berbakti pada ortu, agama, dan negara.
Many nights we've prayed
With no proof anyone could hear
In our hearts a hopeful song
We barely understood
Now we are not afraid
Although we know there's much to fear
We were moving mountains
Long before we knew we could
There can be miracles
When you believe
Though hope is frail
It's hard to kill
Who knows what miracles
You can achieve
When you believe
Somehow you will
You will when you believe
In this time of fear
When prayer so often proves in vain
Hope seemed like the summer birds
Too swiftly flown away
Yet now I'm standing here
My heart's so full, I can't explain
Seeking faith and speaking words
I never thought I'd say
There can be miracles
When you believe
Though hope is frail
It's hard to kill
Who knows what miracles
You can achieve
When you believe
Somehow you will
You will when you believe
They don't always happen when you ask
And it's easy to give in to your fears
But when you're blinded by your pain
Can't see your way clear through the rain
A small, but still, resilient voice
Says help is very near
In our hearts a hopeful song
We barely understood
Now we are not afraid
Although we know there's much to fear
We were moving mountains
Long before we knew we could
There can be miracles
When you believe
Though hope is frail
It's hard to kill
Who knows what miracles
You can achieve
When you believe
Somehow you will
You will when you believe
In this time of fear
When prayer so often proves in vain
Hope seemed like the summer birds
Too swiftly flown away
Yet now I'm standing here
My heart's so full, I can't explain
Seeking faith and speaking words
I never thought I'd say
There can be miracles
When you believe
Though hope is frail
It's hard to kill
Who knows what miracles
You can achieve
When you believe
Somehow you will
You will when you believe
Aduhh gue pengen capet-capet Natal nii gatau kenapa :)
Tapi gue harus ulum dulu nii.
Gue berharap gue 'n temen-temen bisa kasih yang terbaik, Gbu ^^
♥
Living a year in just one day
Even if I grab my head with my heart
The morning without you
Because it’s bright like yesterday’s
I don’t want to open my eyes
Little by little, I’m becoming weird
A voice I want to forget
I close my ears and listen
The sky I’m looking at by myself
Because it’s bright like before
I can’t open my heart
I’m crazy for you
So to speak
The memory of all those days of love
A heart that can’t stop
Wakes up my heart that wants to sleep
Let it go
Wanting to turn around, your memories are now
Left only inside pictures
You’re my endless love
All the memories of loving with you
I tuck away in the left side of my heart without change
Even if I start with a new person
I keep going on with a new heart
The small feelings that kept rushing
Don’t even stop by
Even if I try to erase you and forget you, I
Smile several times
Yeah Yeah How many time Yo
Even if I look alright
Yeah Baby Yo Baby
The time I spend alone
Is so long without end that
I just want to wake up
The face I want to see
Even if it is within time
Even if I call your name
It is too far now
You can’t hear me anymore
I’m crazy for you
So to speak
The memory of all those days of love
A heart that can’t stop
Wakes up my heart that wants to sleep
Let it go
Wanting to turn around, your memories are now
Left only inside pictures
You’re my endless love
That day long ago when I first saw you
Practicing saying “I love you” by myself
Still, those words
Are repeated alone
Oh oh oh oh oh
I’m crazy for you
So to speak
The day I can say I love you
The time spent with you in my arms
How is it such a blessing to me
Let it go
Past memories I want to have again
All of them remain, like the first time
Oh, oh oh, oh oh
You’re my endless love
